Why the fuck not

Another day and another entry into this journal. It is working somewhat when it comes to keeping my thoughts organized enough to make sense. I am still searching for Lyanna but somehow she is keeping under the radar. I cant find any information about where she might be. I know i need to stay away from her for Vincents sake but i have to find her. The castle is so empty without my family.....

On a happier note The school is finished. I wanted to open it as soon as it was complete. that plan was scratched when i found out Quenya was getting married. She is not only getting married but its to Falvir of all people. I dont mean to sound like i hate the man, its quite the opposite in fact. I love Falvir like he is family he just likes to get into trouble. I already told him that if he hurts Quenya there is nothing in any realm that would stop me from killing him. She is my oldest friend and i want her to be happy, I cant expect her to follow me her entire life.

I seemed to have gone on a tangent now where was i....Ah yes the school. I will be opening the school the day of Quenyas wedding, it wont be a grand opening i dont want to take the attention way from her. I hope Quenyas life with Falvir is a great one and filled with happiness. Once everything is settled with Lyanna and Vincent i think i will ask for her hand. She is the love of my life and i never want to be without her.

It has been awhile since my last entry in this journal. Life has kept me pretty busy as of late, my family is finally back together. The school is doing great and the students seem to be enjoying their classes. Well that is debatable as of late, students seems uncomfortable with the fact that guardians and other allies of mine show up at the castle wounded and damn near begging for help. I have had to institute a rule for my allies that essentially bans them from the rest of the school beyond the infirmary and a special part of the castle i have had created just for them. This entire problem started when Boone came to the castle carrying Quenya, and Falvir down a hallway full of students. It would not have been that bad but it seems a few students recognize Boone as someone who should not be trusted or allowed onto the castle grounds.

The day Boone brought Quenya back in the shape she was in i did not know what to do, it was the first time she had actually been wounded like that. It was bad enough i felt like my heart was going to explode, i felt every moment of her life slowly slipping away. All i felt was pain but deep down it was something else. It was fear, the fear of losing the other half of myself. I know most people would not understand that pain, i am sure some do though. The connection between a void walker and the one they are bonded to is a powerful one, if either one dies there is a chance the other will die with them. If Quenya died i know i would have not died with her, i would have become and different person for sure. the pain would never go away and my madness would not have something to fight against except myself. She helped me so much in keeping the madness at bay, i have no clue how long it would be before i was no longer the man everyone knew and loved.

I am going to end this on a good note though, Senka was able to stabilize Quenya and Falvir. It is a small victory considering they are both in a coma right now, she even managed to heal Boone enough to get him out of the castle. He keeps coming back though, he says it to check in on Lyanna and Vincent. I think that is part of it, another part of it is he finally found a place that accepts him and is willing to help him. The man might be an insufferable ass but that is not his fault. He just needs to stop scaring my students.