I was so happy when I got back to Earth, when the war and subsequent fighting was done, I saw my family for the first time in six years? We went on 'vacation' together, to a beach far from the reach of American journalists (some still followed anyway) and I tried to tell them about my adventure. I was so excited to show them pictures of everything to get them the details to share my experience... My mom said it was a lot to keep up with, that she had a hard to keeping up with the events of the story. She suggested I try writing it all down instead.
We both knew she was asking me to stop talking, to stop talking about it, to leave it be. She wanted me to be home, she wanted to erase the last six years of grief she had been living through. I had missed her so much but I had been alive, having an adventure, growing and changing. For her... she had lost her daughter and the world was dark and sad. I came back but with me came the fighting, the heroics, the news, the awfulness of being a celebrity.
I never wrote down my adventures while I was "home". My mom never got to know all of it or even all of me. I wasn't the person that had disappeared. I guess now is as good a time as ever to start writing my adventures down...
What do you do when your friend is beyond cursed and no amount of hope will pull them out? I want to be helpful. Just let me be there. I was lucky to have people with me in the beginning. But by the end? When I first came here? I had no one. No one to understand, no one to want me to be free. My curse allowed others to get what they wanted; to be victorious in their campaigns (so long as they were on the side the Sword agreed with). They didn't care about the curse.
Someone else keeps trying to tell me to run away, to go away. I don't want to. I just want to be here in those times of need. I want to offer to someone else what was not available to me. I'll go away, only if she tells me she doesn't want me, or won't have me anymore. Otherwise, I'm not running. I don't run anymore.
Why can't he see that?
Annoying.